This weeks reflection.

Sitting here watching my favorite show ever (Real Housewives) and thought about how its Sunday and I haven’t posted yet! So many good things happened this week so maybe a little reflection would be good.

So my Monday morning started with my first personal training appointment at my new gym. I cried.

I know what you’re thinking and that’s not why.

I accidentally got sold on a contract for 12 months of PT. Well not “accidentally” I guess. I expressed that I will hopefully be starting nursing school in the fall and won’t be working full time, so I do not need any extra expenses. The guy selling me went on to tell me they only have 12-month contracts. I asked flat out if they had 6-month contracts and he told me no. So I stupidly signed. This had happened on Friday, so when I showed up for my first appointment on Monday morning I was on level 10 of anxiety because it marinated all weekend that I shouldn’t have done that.

Remember the episode of friends when Chandler and Ross go to quit the gym?


Me too.

I was prepared for the worst.

Was I going to have to quit the bank too? *Insert laughter*

So anyway, my new personal trainer (not the same guy who signed me up) got tears from me bright and early. Probably keeps you awake better than coffee on a Monday morning right? Crazy lady crying at the gym has now been checked off my bucket list. He ended up being so understanding and when the other guy who signed me up came in we changed my contract to 6-months. (Why he lied to me when I signed up, I don’t know but I am choosing not to focus on it because I want to kick ass at the gym and not let this ruin my experience).

This was one of those moments where I wanted to crawl in a hole and have my mom go into the gym and tell them “YOU CHANGE MY DAUGHTERS CONTRACT RIGHT NOW”. Does that feeling ever go away? I’m 26 and still need my mommy sometimes. Ok, like all the time, let’s be real.

It was a growing moment for me. I have power, I can handle my business like a big girl and I can conquer anything.

…..even though I cried.

The lesson I am taking away from this week is not to believe everything that a salesperson tells you. Which is something I should know as I have previously worked in sales. I also learned that not everyone is going to be as honest to you as you are to them. I need to speak up when I am uncomfortable about something.

GO WITH YOUR GUT ALWAYS <— best advice anyone could ever give you!

I ended this weekend with applying for nursing school. Now I have to patiently wait until mid-March for an answer. Patience is not always a virtue I have. I have worked incredibly hard just to get myself in a position to apply to nursing school and now that I am not in control anymore is TERRIFYING.

Goals for the upcoming weeks are going to be to focus on my exercise and meditation. Calming down and understanding that I cannot control everything.

Happy Sunday Y’all and go conquer the week!


Crystal of the week: Aqua Aura Quartz


There’s this podcast that I love to listen to and they do a crystal of the week. Of course, they are super knowledgable but here will be my little baby amateur version of that.

This is one of my favorite crystals! Not too sure why, maybe it’s because it aides in spiritual wisdom or maybe because its pretty. The jury is still out.

So let me just tell you how I chose to write about this one. I was originally going to write about Howlite (another favorite) but I couldn’t find it in my book. The whole time I was picturing Aqua Aura Quartz in my mind and then I just ended up flipping to that page. So here we are. I like to just roll with things.

When I originally went to buy this stone I was really looking for Angel Aura Quartz.  I was really just looking for a good meditation stone and something that would connect me with the other side. I have some crazy dreams of spirit (which I plan on talking about maybe in another post) and wanted something to bring me some clarity. I guess this stone found me in my quest for something different.

Aqua Aura Quartz happens when clear quartz goes through a treatment process in where their surfaces are bonded with gold. This stone is strongly connected to the element of water. Per The Book of Stones, this means that this stone is good for enhancing one’s access to the truth of the emotions and the portal of spirit which are accessed through emotions. There is a very high and intense vibration with this stone.

The name Aura is not a coincidence, this stone helps heal your aura. It helps create an aura of peace and well-being. It also helps attract wealth and success while relieving anxiety and depression.

If this is too “woo-woo” for you then you may want to stop reading.

My favorite thing about this stone is that it stimulates connections with higher vibrational realms, facilitating channeling and all types of interdimensional communication.

I put this stone next to my bed because of the above-mentioned dreams. These dreams with spirit are something that I have always experienced but just recently started paying attention to. I need all of the help I can get to make sense of these things. This stone is a good start. Or at least I think it is.


Your favorite amateur crystal lovin weirdo.




There is something out in the universe where everyone is transitioning right now. Its a huge shift. Have you noticed?

Everyone in my life seems to be going through some kind of change. Whether that be relationships, jobs, school, etc. I just feel like it’s going to be a good year with a lot of change. Positive change!

I was talking to my boyfriend the other day about change and how I don’t always hate it. In fact it kind of excites me. I truly think that is a product of how I was raised. As a kid I was always dealing with chaos. Lets just say
I have a high tolerance for it. Somehow it doesn’t freak me out. I always find myself being the calm in during the storm. There’s ALWAYS a solution. Nothing is worth losing your sanity over.

Ok.. I’m no angel and we all have our moments. If my sister Ashlee or best friend Michelle is reading this you’re probably laughing your asses off because you’re the ones that get my hysterical crying phone calls when I do lose my shit. Ok.. and my mom. We are all human right?


My baby and I on a hike. Ready for some more experiences like this one in 2019.

The universe has a crazy way of fixing things when something is completely wrong for you. I was working this job that I was miserable at. I won’t go into detail but it just wasn’t the place for me. I am still working towards nursing (application is being submitted this month) and I needed to transition from where I was at. I ended up getting a position with the same company working from home. My schedule is 10 AM to 7 PM. When I tell people this most of them are like “that has got to be horrible”. Honestly though, I am so much more motivated to get this booty moving in the morning. This is the perfect schedule to still get decent sleep and am able to work out.  I also have the capability of making healthy food right at home. Lets be real, one of my least favorite things to do is pack a lunch. I am going to take this opportunity and run with it.

To conclude this is going to be a great year. I am going to focus on self love not weight loss. However, I do hope the weight loss comes in the side car of the hypothetical motorcycle that is driving the self love.

I am so excited for what is to come in 2019 and hope everyone makes it a positive transition.

It’s totally the year of self love.


first full week of Keto.

Hello again.

Let’s just say I fell off the wagon…… like just a little. I was doing great when I first started this blog. I lost 10lbs and was feeling great. How come it creeps back so easily? A question I will always be asking myself. Turns out being healthy and eating to lose weight can be two very different things.

It was getting to the point where my boyfriend and I were hearing about fasting left and right. It was some kind of sign from the universe that we needed to try it. We did some research and gave it a go. It has so many amazing benefits and if you are someone with major health problems please oh please look into it! So, anyways, our fast was originally going to be from Friday through Sunday. well…. we only made it until Saturday around 4pm. It was the longest either of us had gone without food and we definitely felt like we were dying.

SPOILER ALERT: we didn’t die. It was totally miserable when it was happening but we both feel SO much better.

We ate our first meal and it was incredible how full we both got with little food. We decided to devote ourselves to eat to be healthy, not to lose weight. Anyone who knows my boyfriend knows that he doesn’t have any weight to lose anyway. I will talk about the benefits I have seen for myself and then I’ll share some of the things he has noticed as well.

One of the major keys in the foods I have been choosing to eat has been based on this book my mom gave me called Genius Foods. She saw this guy on the Rachel Ray show and boy am I glad she bought copies for both of us. This guy who wrote the book’s name is Max Lugevere and I have become his biggest stalker. Following him on Instagram as well as listening to his podcasts. Oh, and I am on his email list. So many aspects of our lives are rooted back to the foods we eat. He talks a lot about Alzheimers, Parkinsons and brain fog in the book. Brain fog? Wait. I totally get that all the time. My go-to line is “you guys, you know I have Alzheimer’s so don’t expect me to remember anything”. My little line trying to be funny is actually not funny at all. I’ve been damaging my brain my whole life. It’s amazing how many things have processed oils and sugars in them. Mind. Blown.


Whelp, it was time to make a change. I have only produce and meat in my fridge. I am doing the keto diet but not the gross cheese/dairy infested version of keto that is all over Pinterest. I love cheese and all things creamy but unfortunately, I need to cut it out completely because I cannot control myself around it. The book states that if you are going to eat cheese opt for the full-fat version. The problem is that I will eat the full-fat ball if mozz in one sitting and nobody wants that.

After one full week of no cheating, I am feeling great. My hunger (which is my biggest demon) is at a all time low. I have lost that 10lbs (again) and am going to keep it rolling. Last time I was eating like this with minimal hunger I was on phentermine. I am trying to do it all natural this time around. So far, so good. My skin feels amazing, I don’t feel bloated and I have a ton of energy. Usually, I am falling asleep at my desk around 2pm every day and that was not the case at all this week. I go to bed at 9pm most days and this past week I was up until 10/11ish while waking up for work every morning at my usual time and still wasn’t lacking energy.

Now for Ryan. Anyone who knows him well knows that he eats like a pigeon. He takes one bite of his dinner and gets full. Since starting this new lifestyle he has been able to finish his plate and not be stuffed. This is huge for him because he would so full that he was in pain after eating most days. He also has been feeling much more energetic and has been the best support during this. It’s so so so important to have someone that is on the same page as you and it all the difference when trying to stick to something.

This is only week one. I feel like it is a huge deal that I (we) have even made it this far. My goal is to lose 20lbs by August. I am 1/2 way there and can totally do it! Right? We will see!


taco seasoning.


Super easy recipe for an alternative to packaged taco seasoning. AND you’ll know exactly what is in it!


  • 2T chili powder
  • 1t garlic powder
  • 1t onion powder
  • 1/2t dried oregano
  • 1t paprika
  • 1t cumin
  • 1t salt
  • 1t pepper

With 1lb of browned ground beef, I will usually take 2T of the mix and 1/4 cup of water into the pan.


marinated grilled shrimp.



  • 1 bag of shrimp deveined (~25-30 shrimps)
  • 2 Cloves of garlic, minced
  • 2 T Worcestershire sauce
  • 1/4 cup lime juice, fresh squeezed (~2 limes)
  • 1/3 cup EVOO
  • 1 T brown sugar substitute
  • 1/4 t salt
  • pinch of pepper
  • 2 shakes of hot sauce (red hot is always superior to anything else 😂)


Combine all ingredients in a bowl minus the shrimp. This recipe makes enough to marinade for the shrimp as well as have some extras for basting. Place in a plastic baggie with shrimp leaving some marinade in a container for basting.

Place shrimp on the grill. It helps to skewer the shrimp so that they don’t fall through. Cook until the shrimp is no longer translucent (~10 min). Remeber to baste throughout the cooking process.


arugula & prosciutto salad.



  • 1 cup arugula
  • 2 slices prosciutto
  • 1 T crumbled goat cheese
  • juice of 1 lemon wedge
  • 1T extra virgin olive oil
  • 1/2 clove minced garlic
  • salt and pepper to taste

Top the arugula with the goat cheese (I bought a log of goat cheese and took a little slice of it and crumbled it up in my fingers). Then roll up the prosciutto and slice it (or you can separate it into little pieces with your fingers).

In a small bowl mix the lemon juice from, olive oil, salt, and pepper together. This is probably one of my new favorite salad dressings. Super simple to whip together and really yummy. If you don’t want to deal with the fresh garlic, you can sprinkle some garlic powder instead.